The Fear of Evolving….
I’m just like everyone else. There were many times in my life when I wanted to make myself better and adopt a different personality. What I was doing wasn’t working so I wanted to be someone new, someone different, a new and improved version of myself. Although there was a great desire inside of myself to morph into something else, I was also weak and recoiled in fear………..because I knew evolving into who I was always meant to be would involve pain, effort and time. I wa…s lazy and didn’t want to put in the necessary time or effort to become a better person. I was also weak and wanted to avoid the immense pain involved with the deep inner work and my personal transformation. Because of this “fear of evolving” I simply went out and tried to purchase a different persona, instead of putting in the hard work of developing one. I would go buy a different tattoo, a new car, some new clothes, take some steroids, count on a different girlfriend to make me happy or change the brand of beer or liquor I was sedating myself with down at the local bar of lost souls. This lazy attempt at completing my natural rite of passage from child to adult was the equivalent of putting lipstick on a pig………..because everyone could see through the lipstick. So one day I just decided to be brave and develop the courage to do the hard inner work, in order to discover my true inner self hood. It took effort, time and involved lots of pain……………….but it was the best decision I ever made.